I might just

lose more than 20 pounds. It might end up being 150.

I need a new gay

No really, I do. It's like a gay guy saying he needs a new "hag"....so please, don't be offended. I've lost all my gays; not that I was ever real close to any of them. But I find myself getting jealous over girls that have a close ggf (Gay Guy Friend). I want one for myself dammit! Not the catty drama kind of ggf, but the kind that listens and loves to do fun stuff. Not the gossiping, materialistic ggf....the sweet, loves to dance and watch movies ggf. I've always had more guy friends than girl friends and these days its just the opposite. & the girlfriends I have are too busy, etc. Can I mail order a new gay? That was a joke, oh wait......maybe it wasn't. I have a fun ggf that's in Dallas and he's the perfect ggf.....except for the fact that he's not 21 yet:( That can be a stinker when you want to go out. But he's too far anyways. I'm sad.....lend me your ggf!


PS: if you are easily offended.....keep away from my blog. Thank you- come again!

Reduced for quick sale

Any takers? Ha. Just kidding. He's going to kill me;-P

What a horrible way to start the year

So we're driving to my dad's after breakfast this morning and we see black smoke. Next thing we know there are 3 firetrucks and about 6 cop cars flying by. Being nosy and wanting to see whats up, I pull into the subdivision. I see a lady pull a sweater out of her car and run it to someone; wrapping them up. I hope no one was hurt. It was obviously a big house fire; being Sunday I'm sure ppl were home. There were ppl everywhere and we were about to be in the way. We left and prayed that everyone made it out ok. I guess we'll have to watch the news to find out






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I have no resolution

Because I never ever stick to them.

Though this year I will say this much...20 pounds better fall off before 2010 gets here or I am going to lose it! Well they wont fall off, but I better get off my fat ass and work them off. If I can get to my goal and lose 20 pounds, then I might go for 10 more. But no more than 30. I'm not good thin, I look much better curvy. So this isn't a resolution, its a promise to myself. Or more of a threat...if I don't do it, I will kick my own butt. It's just so hard, the older you get the harder it is to lose weight. I kept weight off for 7 yrs and its back, I just love food damn it! I love to cook and do it quite often. I don't cook unhealthy food, but I do have a sweet tooth that gets me into trouble. I love to bake and for the last year now I feel like every meal should end w/chocolate. Even the smallest piece of chocolate, I just "need" it. WTF? Where did that come from? I never use to crave that crap, especially after every meal! It's horrible and I'm constantly fighting my urges and cravings. I'm totally unhappy in this body I'm walking around in. I don't feel good in my clothes, I don't want to go out, I don't want company.....I just hate it. I feel ugly. That's it! Boot camp's on at my house!

Beautiful Nail

I'm sure you have all seen this and if you haven't... you must! I'm not on YouTube often, but this is def my favorite video. Anjelah Johnson does the perfect impersonation of a Vietnamese nail tech. Believe me...I know.

I need help here ppl

Okay so I'm an old pro when it comes to layouts, etc on Myspace....but I am new to this blogger setup. I don't like my layout or background but when I went to change the html....it got all jacked up. I usually am the one ppl go to for technical assistance....I'm the computer nerd of my family. But here....I'm stumped! I want a page that shows my personality and while pink is one of my favorite colors; my page is blah! HELP!

I slept my way into 2009....

hopefully the year will be a little more exciting than my entrance into it. I was in bed by 11. Pathetic I know. My kids were w/my father and I was invited to my friends party which I know was probably awesome because she and her hubby are the best hosts I know. But I didn't even ask my main squeeze if I could go solo; he had to be up at 3am to go to work so he couldn't go. I knew he would be all upset if I took off, so I just crashed. We got home from my dad's around 10pm, I showered and then felt sick. Fun fun. I hit the sheets around 10:45 and snoozed into 2009. I feel old and boring. I had friends calling me from the party wondering why I wasn't there. But it's cool, I spent the evening being tortured by fireworks for my kids sake ( I hate fireworks) and then spent the night home.....safe. So it wasn't all bad. I'm lucky enough to be alive and without a hangover this morning. That's a plus. Had I gone to the party I would for sure be hungover today....no doubt.